Trying. That best describes the kind of day I was having.
And as the day went on and the little things in life had become hard, I grew increasingly fragile and needed to let it be known that my day was crap. So, in the middle of boiling noodles I arranged a therapy appointment for myself. To my delight, my therapist, Dr. Blogger, had an opening at 7:30 p.m..
So for the next couple of hours, I looked forward to my therapy session. In between whipping up dinner, feeding the dogs and bathing the babe, I carefully sorted out the day's events which I would tell Dr. Blogger about come 7:30. I had every intention of lying on the couch and confessing all of the things that had tried my patience as a mom, elevated my blood pressure and led me to eating two cookies and half a slice of chocolate cake today.
I even relished the idea of having a "serious" session with Dr. B. since usually my sessions with him are more on the lighthearted side. I was eager to get my life's bumps out on the table and off my chest. And lucky for me, Dr. Blogger is a good therapist. He has always listened to me with careful consideration as I've sprawled out on the couch and confessed my daily happenings. He never says much, but occasionally he'll brighten my day with a comment.
So when my appointment neared and then past without me stepping foot into Dr. B's office, I wondered why I had played hooky. What had stopped me from going? One minute I'm hurrying to upload pictures from today as to not miss my appointment and the next minute I'm still planted in the same spot looking at the same pictures and caring less that 7:30 has now become 8 o'clock.
And then, just like that, I had my answer.
It was this face that made me realize that I didn't need to list all of the reasons why today was so trying. Kennedy's noodles had changed my noodle's thinking. I had forgotten about life's beauties and blessings, but she reminded me. She reminded me that I did laugh today, that there was some sun shining through all the clouds of the day. I remembered her smile as we danced around the family room and the way she lit up when I placed her on Marley's back for a "horse" ride. And most of all, I remembered the noodles. As she intently watched Sesame Street and ate her noodles, I intently watched her get noodles stuck on her forehead, chin, cheek and hair. And the thought of it still makes me want to bottle that moment up forever.
Among all the disasters of today, there lived a noodle-loving girl who can make me forget appointments, appointments which at one time I thought were important. It seems there's a new therapist in town. Thank you, Dr. Kennedy.